Just one week after beginning my perscription medications, I began to see improvement. Technically, it can take up to 6 weeks for these types of drugs to be "fully" in your system and to see results. I wasn't see dramatic-I'm-back-to-myself results yet, but there was a "brightening." The fog was beginning to lift.
I wrote this in an email on Sept. 20:
I was greatly encouraged by these two verses this morning. I know that my "day" is still a ways a way, but for the first time this week, I feel like I can see the light peaking over the faraway hill. I feel my true self beginning to emerge again. I can see in Matt's face that he sees moments of it, too.
"You, O Lord, are like the light of the morning at sunrise on a cloudless morning, like the brightness after rain that brings grass from the earth." 2 Sam. 23:4
"Lord, the night is nearly over the day is almost here. Help me to put aside the deeds of darkness and put on the armor of light." Rom. 13:12
The Lord has sent help through a mother's helper who will be coming to help me each week. She is an amazing girl who has a heart to serve and love on my kids. I feel so blessed. The Lord had strongly told me, "Accept the help that is offered." And so I am accepting this gift with open arms.
The candida diet is going well. It's not as hard I thought it would be. I've actually had an amazing amount of energy (in comparison) the last two days. Motivation is returning also. Although they say it can take up to 4 weeks to feel the effects of anti-depressants, my body has always been sensitive to drugs and I think this is a good sign that it is working.
One week ago, today, I woke up in darkness. Today, the light is dawning. It amazes me how God has provided so much help and resources in just one week! Counseling appt, physiatrist appt, midwife appt, kinesiology appt, new diet, mother's helper....
Thank you for praying. Your prayers (and mine) have been heard and the Lord is giving generously to me.
Ten days after taking the meds, Matt and I were sitting on the couch watching something on TV. All of sudden I gently laughed about something on the program. Matt looked over me and smiled and said, "There you are."
I was returning. I knew things were going to be better. I knew the treatment I was taking was working. A sense of relief and hope.
--------------------------------------------My Psalm 71 Journey is a blog series that journals my struggle with depression. By honestly sharing my story, I will describe the highs and lows, the encouragement, my treatment decisions and how God has met my needs--bringing His glory to my unglorious situation of depression